Is God a divine librarian?
Part of me, the part of me that is drawn to a book for no reason, believes He is. There are times I sense the Holy Spirit guiding me down the virtual aisle of literary choices as I graze my fingertips over spine after spine, perusing descriptions, and reviews. One by one, I process all the good options, and then He stops and whispers, “This one. This is the one I need you to read.”
It doesn’t always happen like that, but in the case of If You Only Knew My Unlikely, Unavoidable Story of Becoming Free by Jamie Ivey, I know He not only led me to the book, but physically sat me down at a table, opened the cover, flipped to page one, and placed His hand on my shoulder, compelling me to just be still and read. Ugh. As always, I wriggled a bit, but I obeyed. I’m so thankful I did, and I’m sure I’ll read this one again. Why? For a few reasons:
1) I feel as if Jamie is sitting across from me crisscross applesauce and we’re chatting over steaming cups of hot coffee. I dig that casual easy going writing style.
2) I can relate to the feeling of being ashamed of the past, hoarding secrets, deathly afraid of what other people might think of me.
3) The idea of God turning broken into beautiful was for everyone else besides me.
4) I, too, feel like I’ve worn the scarlet letter on multiple occasions, whether it be F for fraud or D for disappointment or L for liar. And just like Forest Gump tells the truth in his simple statement, “Sometimes there aren’t enough rocks.”, “Sometimes there aren’t enough pins to hold the letters of shame in place.”
5) I feel like Jamie’s vulnerability in telling her story leaves room for me (and you) at the table of grace.
6) The chapter titles are fantastic and on point: From Failure to Freedom, Permission to Be Real, Growing Up with God, Stuff Like This Doesn’t Happen to Us, Chased by God, It’s Complicated, Come, Thou Fount, Owning My New Identity, Sin Shock, Vulnerability Breeds Vulnerability, and Jesus is Better.
Favorite Quote: “The pages of this book are drenched with ‘me too’ tears, poured out over a so-far lifetime of failing and following, failing and following. Yet God has forgiven me, just as God has forgiven you. And even on days where we may see more losing than winning, His faithfulness and forgiveness will hold us together. For as bad as it’s been, and as bad as it can get, Jesus is better. Let us all be women who believe that to be true.”
I highly recommend this one for women and men alike. Then, I’d pray about giving it to your teenagers or young adult children to chew on.
Jamie is also the host of the podcast, The Happy Hour. You can hear more of her story there.